A Price Worth Paying
In one sense, it would be incredibly easy to write an “end-of-semester” post. There’s so much I learned, so many ways in which I grew.
But in another, it’s pretty much impossible. Too much goes on in my head in one day; there’s no way to get it all out there.
It’s questionable whether there’s even a point to writing a post like that for this blog. But let me at least say this: For the first time, leaving campus was hard for me. Incredibly hard, actually. And that makes me rather happy, because it means that there was something I had there that meant enough to me that to lose it, even for a seemingly short time, was painful.
For the first time in a long time, I knew I had friends so close that they were practically family.
God works unbelievably slow sometimes, it’s true. I waited years to find friends so close as these. But it happened. God brought these amazing people into my life, and finally convinced me to pry my heart open to them. It’s difficult and painful to not be with them, and even being with them is hard sometimes, but every moment is worth it.
They’ve taught me something, too: that I can do more than just survive the storms of life and the trials I go through, I can actually thrive in them. Even if all I can manage is a smile, I’ve conquered something. I’ve had a little victory I can share with the Lord and Mama Mary. (Seriously, try sharing one of those with them sometime, you will not believe how proud they are of you!!)
And the thing is, even if we’re in the middle of a waking nightmare, the beauty of life, the immensity of God’s love, and the intoxicating preciousness of each and every person walking the face of this earth is untouched. What more reason need we to rejoice?
Posted on May 15, 2014, in Insights and tagged Christ, friendship, grace, gratitude, healing, love, Mary, suffering. Bookmark the permalink. 3 Comments.
I’m happy you’re doing so well, Sean. Keep up the good work. We cracked up over here watching you in the honors video.
I feel as if I could have written this myself! I completely relate to how you felt this semester…and not wanting it to end, even if it’s just for a short time. I am so excited to see what the future holds for you and all of us.
(Sorry for reading this so late! Haven’t been online much, hah).
While reading this, I found myself wanting to comment something simple: “I love you, Sean, and I love this.” But then I realized that such a comment would be essentially a reiteration of, like, all of my comments on this blog. This led me to realize what most of your blog posts and writing about your life do: they evoke love. So I apologize for the monotony of my comments, but your posts are just so fantastic that they leave me with little to say but what I said above. 🙂